Celebrating Week 21!


How far along? 21 weeks, 4days
Total weight gain/loss: + 9 lbs
Maternity clothes? Jeans, jeans, jeans.
Sleep: It’s been wonderful. And I’m so thankful.

Best moment this week: Honestly, there were so many! But, if I can only pick one, I think it would be reading this comment on one of my posts:

“Kim and Family

Your post brought to tears, but they are tears of hope and joy for our God who you reminded me is always there in us, your story and heart felt pain brought me back to him after months of just living in the world, today I choose to Iive in Gods grace and love because of you. My prayers and thoughts are with you and your family as you do go through this difficult journey. All my love . Lori L.”

Movement: Yes! And I love it.
Food cravings: Still cold water. Lots of it.
Anything making you queasy or sick: Eating late at night.
Have you started to show yet: Yep.

Gender Predictions: We know. But we aren’t telling yet. Because the poor ultrasound tech who has been trying and trying every week still isn’t 100% sure.  But I am. And now I get to hold it over all of your heads for a week at least. (insert evil laugh…) 🙂

Labor Signs: No.
Belly Button in or out? IN
Wedding rings on or off? Still on and still too big for my left hand. No preeclampsia yet!
Happy or Moody most of the time: This week? Joyfully thankful. If I hadn’t had these last 8 “bonus” weeks, there’s so much I would have missed. I wouldn’t trade them for anything.

Weekly Wisdom: Seeing God work in others’ lives gives a lot of meaning to your own.

Milestones: Baby is as big as a bell pepper. I hope an orange one. Those are my personal favorite. 🙂

Weekly Prayer Request: Big doctor’s visit this week to get some in depth anatomy stuff of baby. This is really important for us as we go forward with the gigantic and numerous decisions we have to make in the next 3-4 weeks. And we have to set up a consult with one of the NICU doctors at our hospital. We’re hoping to have the consult with the one we’ve heard is the best. This meeting won’t take place until the first week of November, but the meeting will get set up, hopefully this week.

Hey there, Little One.

I think this week has been a good one for you. Especially if you like apples and fresh air. I’ve held on to every day. Every moment early in the morning after your dad leaves for work, and I lay in bed waiting for your sisters to wake up…those are our moments. I know, because of the position of your ears, that most likely you can’t hear my words at all. But just in case, I speak them anyway. And I feel you moving. And I wish I could bottle up those moments and feelings for forever. But I can’t. So, I try to make each one weigh as much as it can in my mind. Because seconds are just seconds. But they are still seconds. And all these seconds have added up to an entire two extra months.

Two months past where you were supposed to not be with us anymore. Two months of kicks and flips I wasn’t supposed to feel. Two months of ultrasounds (that’s eight of them we’ve had now!) where I have gotten to know so many little things about you. Two months of knowing that your right hand is your favorite to suck on. But your left hand is most comfortable under your chin. I’ll be sure to keep that in mind when you get here.

We’ve truly been given a gift. A gift of an entire lifetime with you. And no matter how long or short it is, we will most likely see that entire lifetime before our very eyes in the next several months. But, I have a feeling that you will have a bigger impact on this world without being able to speak (or hear) a word, than any of us will have in a long lifetime of speaking. You’ve already given all of us gifts that could not have been given any other way. Gifts of love for others, compassion for those who are hurting, and a stronger faith than we could have imagined.

While you can’t get your little body to grow much at all, you’ve done an incredible job of growing our hearts. And for that, we thank you, Little One.

And, until we see you again later this week,

We love you, and we always will.




About Kim

I am a sinner, miraculously saved by grace, living by faith, and pressing toward the mark of being more like Christ. I absolutely love being a stay-at-home mom! I'm also a caterer for a few weddings throughout the year, a baker, and a party planner. And I love to play in other people's kitchens as well as my own! My husband, Chris, just finished his studies for his MA degree in Pastoral Studies. He's a wonderful (and super smart!) daddy - and the most loving and supportive husband. My two beautiful daughters, Chloe and Kami, are the joys of our lives! We pray that they both would be greatly used of the Lord. Throughout their short time here on earth, we have learned so much about ourselves, our God, and the gratefulness we have towards our own parents, who raised us in the ways of God's Word. Our third unborn child is a blessing as well - even after its recent pre-diagnosis of Trisomy 18, or Edwards Syndrome. This blog has kinda turned into a little journal of sorts of our dark journey down this rather uncommon road. I stay busy cooking, cleaning, gardening, and raising the plants I killed back to life, and homeschooling. I blog when get the chance. :) We are always happy to have visitors, so please stop by anytime! Although, if you do give us a call first, we'll make sure to have some fresh cookies and sweet tea available when you arrive!

4 responses »

  1. Once again I’m reading this before class, and I’m crying. I don’t know why I do this every week, But I can’t seem to go to class until I ready your update 😉 I am praying for your family everyday. I hope this week is a good one for you. Thanks for your cheerful and praising spirit. Love you!

  2. I read the comment you posted here last week, and I praised God for the work he had done in the life of this Sister. Your Little One is an evangelist! He (guessing that is the prediction this week!) has testified to God’s grace and has taught us that God alone sustains life (regardless of the circumstances). Continuing to pray for you and your family including your Little One. God bless!

  3. Hi there, a friend of mine passed on the link to me for your blog. I’m so sorry to hear about the diagnosis you are dealing with for your little one 😦 Reading your story brings back a lot of memories for me. I understand some of what you are going through, and know how hard it is to trust God through it all. We found out last year at 19 weeks that our baby had a lot of health issues and that these probably indicated a fatal chromosomal condition. It was suggested that we abort her, as the specialist said she would never make it to full term. And that even if she did, she would probably die during birth or very soon after. Well our daughter proved everyone wrong and was born by planned c-section at 38 weeks, and we got a wonderful 6 days with her before she went to be with the Lord. Hope this gives you some hope – hang in here! The road is so hard, but is so worth it. If you want to read more about our journey you can do so at http://www.babyhannahgrace.blogspot.com . Praying for you and your precious little baby.

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