Dear Heavenly Father,
I just wanna tell you a couple of things about my little guy. You know everything there is to know about him – But I wanna still tell you anyway?
He loves sucking his thumb. I’m ok with that. I let my girls do that until they are around 4 or so. But you can let him do that as long as you want.
He loves kicking. I can only imagine how good he is at it now that both his legs will work well.
He was a snuggler. He’ll probably need a lot of hugs like his sister, Kami. He liked to smile, though, too. Whenever he ate. Another Kami-trait.
I have a lot of his milk in the freezer. I know You’ll make sure just the right tiny NICU baby receives it. I kinda hope it’s a boy that ends up with it. And I hope his mama appreciates the love and warm tears that were sent with it. If my Kyle’s milk can keep another baby boy alive, though…Wow.
I love stars. I show his sisters the stars all the time. Maybe, if You end up making any more, You could let him help You?
Can you just tell him we miss him? A lot. Kami’s pretty upset that she didn’t get to give him “a goodbye kiss and a hug”. So she kisses her Kyle bear quite a bit.
I got a new nephew yesterday. He’s cute. Like his aunt, of course. I think I’ll kiss him twice every time I see him. Once for him and once for my baby boy. I can’t wait to kiss them both.
We love our Kyle. And a lot of other people do too. But because of him, a lot of people love You more. I know we do. So thank you.
Tomorrow’s Tuesday. For 20 weeks, I saw my baby every Tuesday. I won’t see him on Tuesdays anymore. And that makes Tuesdays really hard days for me here. But I know You’ll carry me through Tuesday. And Wednesday. And the other days. Like you have the last 220 days (and all the ones before that). Thank you for not putting me down.
I’m so thankful to you for those days. I’m so thankful I could write him letters every week. And, if I could write him another letter, it would simply say…
“Enjoy Heaven today, little guy. I know you’re well taken care of. And one day, I can’t wait to hear what you’ve been up to.
I’ll see you again (not) soon (enough). Until then, know that I love you, and I always will.
Below is the video we showed at Kyle’s Memorial Service this weekend. May it be a blessing to you as it was to all of us in attendance on Saturday. I appreciate you all so very much – and in a way, couldn’t have done this journey without your support and prayers. I’ll be blogging again – about not-so-teary-eyed things – starting next Monday, but will be taking the week off. May God bless this video, and you.